How fucked up is this? I almost never accept invitations to go places and do things with the scant remaining few who can conceivably be called friends, but I'm hurt when my phone doesn't ring off the hook with opportunities to turn down.

I've begun simply classifying myself as "all fucked up". I mean really, it says everything that needs to be said about my situation.

Somebody please call me and invite me to do something so I can turn you down. I don't feel good unless I'm reinforcing my overwhelming isolation.